Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Will I.....

Will I ever get anything accomplished again? Nora has been in our home for two weeks. It has been the longest and the shortest two weeks of my life. Apparently it hasn't been too easy on her either.

The last two weeks there has been a lot of crying going on at our house, and let's just say Nora hasn't been the only one shedding tears. It's so hard when your baby is crying from 7-10 at night and you're not sure what to do to help them. Luckily I think I've figured it out. While trying to remember everything you have to do for a baby, it slipped my mind that you are supposed to burp them. We knew that her tummy was hurting at night, but I had no idea it was because of me. Now that I've started burping her better, she seems to be a little happier.

You hear people say having a baby is hard, but you honestly have no idea how hard it is until you're doing it yourself. I'm lucky if I can get in the shower before 1 o' clock each day. I guess if I got out of bed before 11 it might be easier, but after getting up every 2 hours for at least half an hour at a time, it's kind of tough peeling myself out of the warm sheets. Especially when I'm cuddling with her.

I look forward to the day when I have a routine, and am able to get a little more accomplished. And at the same time I don't want that time to come. I want my little girl to stay tiny forever.

Because even though I'm exhausted, my boobs hurt, and I feel like a zombie, there is still nothing better than having her wrap her tiny hand around my finger.

Or to feel her soft skin, or see her eyes take new things in every day.

I know life will be normal again one day, and then I'll look back and miss these times, probably because by then you've forgotten how hard it was.

One thing I don't have to worry about is getting back to my pre pregnancy weight. I'm only 4 pounds away. My body isn't the same as it was before but at least I'm not worrying about getting the extra weight off. All I have to worry about is taking care of her.


I hope I haven't scared anyone pregnant or trying to get pregnant. I mean, I'm sure I haven't said anything that everyone doesn't already know. As long as you're aware that you're going to be exhausted, and that you're going to get peed and pooped on numerous times a day, then you should be alright.

It's rewarding. To know, at the end of the day that you're keeping this little person alive, is so rewarding. We couldn't have asked for a better Christmas gift this year.

12 comments:

Jessica Madsen said...

Hi there, You don't know me, really. We have met before though. I am Heidi Madsen's sis-in-law. I knew you were having your baby soon, so I thought I would make my way over to see if she had arrived. First I must say she is absolutely gorgeous. Stunning. So sweet and so tiny. I love all of her beautiful pictures. You are amazing with a camera. Also, I wanted to tell you I think you are so courageous after reading your labor and delivery story. I am sure that was a terrifying experience for you. I admire your strength and positive attitude. I know your time is limited so I will stop rambling on and on...the real reason I wanted to comment is because I read that your sweet little girl has been crying a lot because of an upset tummy. I have a six week old who has colic. So I know how hard it is when your baby is crying and uncomfortable. We live in Canada right now, and there is this stuff up here called 'Gripe Water' and it is given to newborns all the way up to toddlers to treat everything from Colic, gas, hiccups, upset tummies, to teething and more. All I can say is it has worked MIRACLES on my son. He went from intense crying 5 hours each night, to just kind of acting a little squirmy after having the gripe water. We have been giving it to him for about a week now, and he is a whole different child. He is happily asleep right now, and I promise you that would have never happened if I did not have this stuff. Anyway, I don't know if they sell it in the states. If they do get some! If they don't I will send some to you, or bring it at christmas time when we come to Utah if your interested. Sorry for the major ramble. I really just wanted to say congratulations. And hang in there. It gets better each day.

Dartay said...

Soooo cute! Love the pics and it sounds like you are getting it all figured out. Congrats again, she is beautiful :)

Janeen said...

I've heard good things of gripe water too! Her pictures are so amazing!!! I can't wait to see her again, I need to get to know her better. I feel so sad about it. We will be coming by when we are all healthy.

Cardwell said...

What a beautiful little baby Nora is! She is a perfect porcelain doll! I am so glad we were finally able to come see her while she is still so tiny! You look great and are doing great as a new mom. It is definitely the hardest thing you will ever do, but is the most rewarding thing you will ever do. I hope you get a little more sleep in the coming weeks. Don't worry, it will come! :) If you need anything or just want to talk to an adult during the day or have any questions or whatever, please call me. I am right there with you! Love you, girl...and congratulations on your beautiful daughter.

Carrie and Jesse said...

I'm literally almost in tears as to how beautiful she is, and how talented you are at pictures! I may have to use you when I come home!! I thought the before birth sleep sucks, i'm in for a huge shock huh!

Trevor and Natalie said...

Baby Nora is perfect! I love her big eyes! I made you some onesies...but I am an awful person and haven't made it over yet. I am planning on stopping by next week when finals are done! Hope you are hanging in there!

Sarah Adamson said...

Jess she is beautiful! And your pictures are amazing!

ATH79 said...

She is the cutiest little thing! Pretty soon you'll look back and won't believe how quickly it all went by.

Heidi said...

JESSICCA!!!!!!!! I LOVE these pictures! and I LOVE Nora so so much. I want to come hold/kiss/smother her this weekend because we'll be in town. What are your plans? She really is a porcelain doll! I know you are doing a great job. I PROMISE things will get back to normal, it just takes a little while. I love you so much! Give that tiny a kiss from me!

Chelsey & Zach said...

Jess! I love these baby pictures! They really speak the brutal truth! It looks like you are hangin in there though! And she is just beautiful! I'm so glad everything has worked out for you guys! So happy she's here!

JESSICA N COREY said...

Jess she is so freaking cute and I love the pics. I can definatley wait for these times, but Im sure I will be grateful at the same time. I need to come see you, I will soon.........PROMISE!!

RaeLynn said...

love the honesty displayed here. it's so true that you can't understand or appreciate it until you've done it for yourself! amen sister. she is so precious and i was so glad to be up close and personal for her blessing yesterday. she got a beautiful blessing. and by the way, you are a hot mama! i loved your dress.